Its been months since I heard from the old group. Remember that dinner party where I showed my new paintings? Everyone said they loved them, but I saw the fake smiles. Now there all "too busy" to hang out. Funny how that works.
I specifically remember bringing my portfolio to show everyone because I was so exited about the new direction my work was taking. And you know what happened? People barely looked at it. They kept talking about stupid stuff like there jobs and relationships while my art - my LIFE'S WORK - was sitting right there on the table.
This girl actually got up in the middle of me explaining the symbolism in one of my peices to go get more wine. Like seriously?? That was so rude. I dont think I even finished talking because nobody seemed interested anymore. They were all just fake smiling and nodding.
Then later I found out through the grapevine that they thought I was "showing off" and "making everything about me." Are you kidding me right now? I brought my work to share with friends - isnt that what your supposed to do?? If anyone else had accomplishments Id want to hear about them too. Its not my fault they dont have anything interesting going on.
The worst part is nobody even had the decency to tell me to my face. They just started excluding me from things. Stopped replying to my texts as much. Made excuses when I tried to make plans. Classic passive-aggressive behavior from people who are to cowardly to just say whats on there mind.
I confronted this guy about it and he tried to say it wasnt about me, that everyones just "busy with work." But then why are they still hanging out with each other?? I see the Instagram posts. Im not stupid.
He tried to claim that maybe I should "listen more" and "ask about their lives" but like... I DO ask. Its not my fault if there lives are boring. What do you want me to say when someone talks about there office drama for 20 minutes? Im an artist. I think about deeper things.
Honestly, this whole experiance has taught me that most people cant handle being around someone whos actually passionate about something. They want everyone to be as mediocre and complacent as they are. Well Im not going to apologize for having dreams and pursuing them.
If they wanted me around, they should of been more supportive. But instead they chose to be threatened by my success. There loss, not mine.
Im focusing on my art now and leaving all this drama behind. I dont need friends who dont appreciate me anyway.
— Denice